noiinthiem

Alex and I saw Africa

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 22:22:15 GMT

this term is...not quite over.

a lot of amazing has happened.

a lot of shit has come to pass.

some shit is.

eloquence is not.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 02:26:49 GMT

Jill, if your computer has died agian, or something, it is no excuse. I really think you should read your email.

I had a wonderful time climbing in Madison on Thursday, I felt strong. and Bjorklunden this weekend was real good. real real good. some definite instances of real real weird, too, though, ughm.

and I've said it before, felt it before, and heard it before, but it sure is lovely being loved.

yeah.

oh, the king of the cannibals

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 04:09:04 GMT

Lisa Randall, friends, Lisa Randall came and told us about other dimensions and theoretical physics. and about the gravitational force and why (perhaps) it is so weak in our experience and perspecitve of it. I'll send y'all the link to it when it comes up online.

it's sunny and blue skys here. what happened to winter? I want some snow, damnit.

"unfinished"

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 15:07:39 GMT

Weekend at Bjorklunden was swell! I slept outside, went for long runs, played Blokus with Biringer, hung out with my awesome theory-mates, watched KAthleen Battle sing, heard the terrifying splendor of the Queen of the NIght, and relaxed and slept.
this week will be tough, but the Pumello that NOah bought plus how wonderfully my friendships seem to be doing and "things of that nature", I think I"ll come out fine. Just need to keep at it

much more than just hip bones connected to the (*) thigh bone

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 06:13:49 GMT

zoology is rocking my world. Professor Sedlock is awesome. I will have to dissect a fetal pig at some point, however. and I don't know about that.
I talked with Professor Anthony today because she has four beautiful pictures of the Mendenhall icefield on her door. a former student of hers plays in the Juneau symphony and leads hikes across the icefield and icefall during the summer months. way cool.
i did really well on the "paper" I had to write for Biringer about a Beethoven string quartet, which was very affirming, since I didn't work hard last term and didn't get stellar grades on everything (go figure, right?). so working really hard thus far is making me happy and has provided at least one alphabetical representation that I like (as much as one can like those things...but I'm realizing that some people care about it, and that some of those people are people I will need to make good impressions upon, so....)
I got chills listening to Beethoven's 5th in theory today. and I took two short, deep naps today. heck yes. I haven't gone running today, or work out at all. I wanted to go to frisbee, but Bill Carrothers, who said things today that made me feel very very good about things I think about, and his WWI concert went into practice and zoology is not something I can understand without reading, which I have a lot of, so none of the disk toss tonight. unless niko is up and wants to later.
so I'll read until the library shuts up and then go for a run-deal or just crash.
this term is going to be busy busy busy as mitosis.
and I'm going to run, ski, and frisbee to keep myself sane!
algebra's real neat, too. I forgot to say that. Professor Hunsicker is a bit, um, whatnot, but I like her and so far homework, proofs and all have been good times. hard, too, though.... :)
double header ORC this weekend, good lord, we're crazy...!!

and a pair for two

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 03:09:01 GMT

I'm back in Appleton. and it's so very very nice to be back! not in appleton, persay, but here at Lawrence in the ORC and in teh con, and in the science hall taking Ecology. and dreaming about glaciers. and after a lot of thinking, I'm uncertain of my major(s)/minor(s) and thinking about what I want to do with my life is terrifically exciting and terrifically terrifying and to be very honest with myself about some things is hard.
I have the motivation to do very well this term. and work very hard. may I have the self control and time management to do just that.
the new year's resolution that Meg's post gave me was "go streaking more often". alrighty, then.

not drunk, not sober

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 06:47:48 GMT

livejournal keeps reformatting, but I never have to think about it, since the cursosr always goes where it should.
I've have a worthwhile break thus far it's neeb nice to be home, it moves slower here, and I don't have to worry about picking up the pace of things. nonetheless I've been keeping myslef busy with things o f a physical nature and seeing old friends and new ones . Skiing happend util the snow left and rain replaaced it. tonight it was 45 and damp. I've been climbing the past two days and if the gym is opne tomorrwo (doubtful, but I haven't cheked yt)e I'llb e going again. I was mostly topclimging tonday and got real frustarted in a crack on a purtple rope. a probmel to return to for shur.
I ran several times with a woman named Tina who is currently traing for the bostton marathon wthich she qualified for in portlandith a 50 second cushion! we go for an hour or so, cover abaout 8 miles or soe and in the dark. last time we lef t before light and got done before ligt. too crazy...
tonight I went "caroling" on invitation of Matt, who I've been riding with (summer) and his wife and some old friends of theirs. it ws neat, I was the youngest (if you don't count not yet yera-old audrey) and theree ended up being ony 5 of usk, so we skipped walking around inth erain and singing and went tot he hotbu stragith off and soacked and sang in there with hot buttered rums and matt's home brew (really tasty!). it felt comfortable being with all four of them, which I really liked, since I admire them all and have a lot of respect for them (especiall matt and jen, since they're big science/outdoor folk and I know them better) but Anne I learned has been climging a lot. and said sh'e dlike to climb with me sometime, if I learn how to lead...which I wanna do anyway. conversation was good and fun, and singing soaking carols in a hottub to the light of and LED si always a good time! I need to practice some tonight. I've been focusing and concentrati g on concentraitn lately, which ahs been ood for me. I need to do it more, though. though this is the first ever real break I think I've taken from trumpet (volutarily). it's nice, too.

deja vu

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 07:02:59 GMT

the Scow has lured me home once more. I haven't practiced in exaclty a week. WOW. I skied utah and it rocked. I took finals and they rocked in two distinctly different ways: the way when rocking is awesome, and the way when rocks do what they do in water. I found Neil Young and his friends Crosby Stills and Nash today in my aunt's old records. HECK YES! I had a good time with my mom today. and I'm confused by some people and not by others. windchimes should not be made out of frozen poop and my hands smell like 3.2 beer.

monheim rocket!

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 17:59:25 GMT

I realized this morning that all of my finals will be next tuesday. music theory, my jury; combinatorics. this week is going to be insane. and the next 8 days will be exactly like the first theme in Beethoven's piano sonata op. 2, no 1 in that I will climb a huge registral height quite a few times, asymmetrically and off balance, developing as I go, to climax suddenly on the seventh day (next tuesday), only to descend quickly in less than a day. and chill for 3 days before going skiing in Utah.

i'm now transitioning to lunch, only to develop upon Beethoven after and retransition into more study, recaping with intensity.
or somethign, dear dear

whoa whoa

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 03:55:02 GMT

two trips to the emergency room in 5 days is way too many. thank goodness only one of them was for me. I realize now how much more smiling people should be appreciated. I appreciate them more.
I'm in the midst of a very challenging music theory midterm. And in the midst of the coolest unit EVER in Biringer's class: the Germen Lied!! Wolf is amazing....and Schubert... such brilliant music.
I'm headed to Devil's Lake tomorrow for a night....which is going to be awesome.
Good reading periods to y'all.

20 days later....

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 18:09:27 GMT

hhhhmmmmmm. there is a large amount of work awaiting my acutely tuned mind. a few small notes:
I don't know what to say when pressed with something to say.
although,
yesterday evening, a friend of mine fractured her humerous. she's a bassoon player, so it's pretty awful. slack-ass rope-walking. I hope she'll be okay. I wish her parents would calm down and lay off.
I learned that fractals are defined by being fractionally dimensional. or existing in the dimension between the 1st and 2nd. which is baffling.
I didn't do as well on my combo midterm as I'd liked, nothing like Rem's score, but I slept through my alarm (why does that alwasys happen the night of important math exams?) and was thus denied the extra 30 minutes to work on the exam. I needed the 30 minutes.
Last night I listened ot a beautiful trumpet recording of Timofei Dochiester playing some amazing arrangements of some amazing pieces. and the Rachmaninoff Vocalise (without words). I fell asleep across te hall from my room and didn't wake up until Niko climbed in the front window.

I"m really not sure quite what to think

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 18:04:25 GMT

why is my toe bruised? bruised, not broken, right?
why can't people clean up their own disgusting messes?

riding the 42 miles to Ripon was awesome, too bad my bike buddy was dehydrated and the last ten miles were lame.
Cross country at Ripon was pretty damn cool, too. and i met the coach, and i want to run, and she's going to let me!

I totally posted yesterday and nothing happened

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 01:50:20 GMT

the only thing worthwhile that I said was this, and I didn't even say it, Darwin did:
a mathematician is like a blind man in a dark room looking for a black hat which isn't there.

otherwise, all is well. my room is pretty damn sweet. I'm in the market for hammocks, a pair of bike shorts, some amazing italian clipless shoes, and a wolfpack case. I'm tired, I've been up for 14 hours and have been physically exerting myself for 8 of them.

will you run a finger along my caulk?

Fri, 09 Sep 2005 05:06:53 GMT

rode lenville in 1 hour 20 minutes today.
had a really good warm up.
it was short.
once again I shall practice late with a mute.
work messes with my practice schedule....damnit!

just remember, anyone can blow a trumpet, but nobody can drive a manlift like you can

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 02:41:50 GMT

so, I've been working for Jerry and Bill. and thus, working with Bill, 41+ feet up in the air alongside the unitarian church. our project is to paint the thing, so we've been scraping and washing and climbing all over scaffolds and up in manlifts and knocking down scaffolds with manlifts and pruning trees with booms on our manlift and nailing the shit out of the 100 year old siding with a nailgun...wheeeeeee!
it's great working hard for good money. and being outside. and it keeps my mind off auditions which always overscare my mind and psyche me out. and it puts a hell of a lot of structure in my day which is nice, but also frustrating as I can't pick up my horn and play whenever I want to.

Yesterday I went biking with Matt from down the street. we went the 20 mile Lenville loop. I really really really wish I'd started biking with him earlier in the summer, he's a climber and a really really really good one, at that, and jsut plain awesome. so, next summer's plans alter slightly so I can be here to go CLIMB!

"be here to go". something's fundamentally wrong about that statement...

train tickie for the 16th-ie

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 22:39:55 GMT

oh, my. that last post of my type is certainly corny, or cheesy, or somesuch-like. but it WAS really cool to play in the mountains...
I just finished a house-sitting stint for a couple with a dog named Tyler. he thinks the trumpet is a devilish device to take my attentions away from him for more than 2.84 seconds. and he doesn't like pedal tones, silly puppy.
I remember when I was smaller, my mom used to accuse me of being "antisocial" becasue I was too shy to talk to people. I just didn't want to initiate an extremely uncomfortable and awkward experience for myself. now I"m being antisocial because I like it.
I got the KRonos quartet Black Angels from the library today. I have this hunch that my subconsious will try to "lose" it so I won't have to return it.

The Seven Devils were on fire and it snowed in Hell

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 16:53:30 GMT

went backpacking!!! and packed a crumby old cornet that Paul found in a dumpster and gave to me along. among things that make me feel so good about being a part of music is playing in the mountains.it was so rewarding to play in such a beautiful place and to have such incredible acoustics.
in three weeks no more mountains.....SAD

balle russe

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 04:31:41 GMT

con mucho ron.
if it were to be described as a piece of music in two languages. as I imagine. I don't like being angry. there is too much force in my anger, and it is both hard to dispell and destructive.
so, my mom and I had a fight. it's been awhile. and I now remember exactly what it's like to be completely misunderstood, misrepresented, and to be involved in something so utterly stupid and hurtful as an argument that boils down to "I can't stand you anymore" followed by a list of reasons why that are not all true and which are not exclusive to me--in fact, describe her better at the moment than me. (in my opinion, of course)
after taking the better part of five minutes to convince myself that breaking the window with the frying pan was not what I really wanted to do, I put on some Stravinsky and mom took a very reluctant Pup on a walk.

planning a backpack trip with two good friends should be fun and exciting, not a test to prove I am a capable, even, god-forbid, responsible or rationally thinking person. parents are so difficult. well, parent, I suppose. are they easier in pairs?

lifejacket? I wouldn't dream without a lifejacket!

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:22:43 GMT

an overview:
I went rafting from White bird Creek to Heller Bar, along the Salmon, then along the Snake after the confluence of the rivers into Hells Canyon. it was the biggest water I've ever been on!!!! and I kayaked the entire time!!! and it was AWESOME!

Finding respect (which has to be mutual to be real) in other people is rewarding. REspecting nature, and being able to face a dangerous challenge with strength and quick decisions in a beautiful canyon, is also incredibly rewarding. and when you're acting as a part of your natural surroundings, and coexisting, and being human and enjoying yourself and being animal and enjoying yourself: that is comfortable and comforting. and it feels right.

being made fun of and put down is not rewarding. or comforting. especially when it comes from someone I had trusted enough to dare to love. respect isn't even in the picture. and trust, much less love, not even shirking the frame. It hurts. pretty damn bad.

and just for the record, if it's your first time in a class IV rapid, you've never really had any kayaking instruction, and you've made it through all the class III's without incident aside from a helluva good ride and smile, and you flip partway through the biggest rapid the whole river has to offer this time of year, make it through without the kayak and recover your paddle and kayak and get back in and still be smiling despite being scared, wet, frustrated, and having tried to breath, swim and live through waves a good two or three times bigger than yourself, a little kindly support or acknowledgement that you're still alive isn't too much to ask, no?

thank goodness for the amazing people that make my life so good. especially those who were so happy to see me at the bottom of that class IV rapid. I made some wonderful friends. and rejeuvinated some great old friendships.

betrayal is awful.

and love is much more than, "a bank's plot to make us go overdrawn". much more. and it can feel real good.

Discovery!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 21:50:08 GMT

there are people in space!!! I think we take for granted how AMAZING! and INCREDIBLE! that really is. and there's a crew on the space station. I didn't realize that. but that means people are LIVING in space! that's just plain awesome

well, I've caught squirrels skinny dipping, but I"ve never seen them water ski

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 00:09:30 GMT

back in moscow again. and this time it feels good to be here. thank goodness. I'm not sure what I'll be doing the rest of the summer. if it works out, I may be backpacking aroudn Montana the rest of the summer, collecting plant data for UI. the onlything about that that I strongly dislike is that it would keep me from practicing all the time and riding my awesome new road bike all the other time. and slackroping. so that's a concern. but we'll see.
I feel like I've figured myself out a little, which makes me feel really good, and after spening two weeks playing trumpet and hanging out with musicians, including an amazing jazz (and classical) trumpet player, John Gronberg, I'm inspired and more in love with playing.
jazz theory is neat, too, whoa! anyone know how to get hands on a Real book?
last night, the rendezvous concert, Jesse Cook, was incredible! I love flamenco, and this guy has done some relaly cool things blending flamenco with other styles and cultures of music. and he was a really really solid, creative player. makes my measley guitar plunking ever more measily and pitiful.
my bike makes motion an afterthought; speed is my new addiction.

how does it feel to be?

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 07:42:21 GMT

so maybe a post is due. I have now completed my first day in Moscow since the 31st of December 2004. seven months is a long time and it feel slike a time warp to be sitting, eaating, sleeping in this house again. I've been on the road a lot this past month and it's nice to finally (if only for 6 days) be rooted in some sense. it's nice catching up with people, too. where y'all at these days so I can find ya?
if Margaret can find me a bike to borrow, on the 9th I'll be riding 119 miles of the White Pine classic which would be grueling and amazing! and then I'll be gone for two weeks to Flathead Lake in Montana to "counsel" some young 'uns at a music camp.so that'll be a neat crowd of people, and a pretty place and good music. and then after that, I'll be back until either I get a job with teh forest service and I go back to school.
I agree with Mary about the weather, even if it means that I'm constatnly applying lotion (if not elaborately scented from bath and bodyworks). because, really, it's a much better passtime than perpetually wiping sweat off of oneself. whoever thought up humidity anyway? stupid git.
I'm reading an intersting book right now: The Sparrow, a sci-fi that has Jesuit preists in it; going to a planet in alpha centauri to meet aliens that they picked up music transmissions from. it's an intersting look at people and a good read. adn mom picked up the book of Feynman's letters edited by his daughter Michelle, which I'm looking forward to reading.
I bought a CD of the Orpheus Chamber Orchestra playing some of Stravinsky's chamber works. pretty amazing stuff!
Mewie and Sam, our two oldest cats both died within a week of my getting home. Mewie, euthanized because the nerves in her back legs were inhibiting her functioning and putting her into a great deal of discomfort, and Sam by some weird feverish, seizurish thing that is beyond the vet he was in the care of. They both were beautiful; I can't remember them ever not existing in my life.

hmmm

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 01:23:08 GMT

I went to the beach today. and swam and dug holes in teh sand. and I met a really cool guy named Ivy. another trumpet player who had some interesting and thoughtful things to say about playing. he'd brought his horn down the ocean and was playing to the surf. we talked about developing as a person while developing as a player and expressing ourselves through music. I feel like I have a lot of thinking and figuring and listening to do. which I'm happy about. I have a lesson with THE Tim Morrison on Thursday which I'm really excited about that I think will also help in my ruminations of play amd playing. not to mention blow my mind!

hey peter

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 03:37:04 GMT

your valves are fuzzy.

but thanks.

haste the day

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:17:13 GMT

we (we being Trevor, Elliot, Adam and I) were supposed to leave at 1. then 1 turned into 3, then 3 came and left and adam still wasn't packed at 5:30. so we're leaving tomorrow early and hoping to get to Lincoln where we'll spend the night, then on to continental divide, then utah, then California. and then I'll be spending two weeks with my aunt and practicing and hopefully taking a lesson from Tim Morrison.
and I don't know where my trumpet is (in Trevor's car in some hidden parking location), trevor is asleep, so is elliot, and I don't want to just walk off with his horn since it was right in the doorway of co-op. so, many thanks to Peter, I have a trumpet to play for the next hour or so. thanks, Peter, may you live long and prosper.
i'll be home in July!!